Showing posts with label confused. Show all posts
Showing posts with label confused. Show all posts

Saturday, 8 February 2014

The Question

From here where they've got a buttload of covers
The question is of course a, I was going to say superhero but he's not. Doesn't have super powers so lets go with sleuth/crimefighter. He was also briefly a black lantern but let's not get into that. I'm not referring to this suave investigator when I say the question. I've been plagued by it since I was eight. Nearly two decades of pondering and I haven't got an answer. Well I have a answer that makes sense but it's such a tragedy.

I think I've written about the question before. Most of these are just vastly reworded versions of previous posts. Now I've said that you just have to go back and read my entire back catalog, right? :-P A feat that would take even the most herculean of readers a few days, weeks, months? How fast would a herculean reader be? Hercules was strong but fast? I suppose explosive strength and speed go hand in hand. Anyways I'm quite a fast reader but I'm terrible at finishing books. I currently have six or seven books on the go. I dip into them and then forget about them. Oh here's where I wrote about the question before. Those life changing moments!

The question is of course what's next? Not what's next for me but for us all, ultimately. I heard it put rather bluntly and elegantly by my favourite mystic. The body is walking in one direction only...straight towards the grave. Physically the form you identify as me will die. As a child we all hold idea that the next step is heaven, well most of us do. I am a hindu but because I grew up a predominantly christian culture when I thought of afterlife, I thought of heaven. But now I don't know what to believe.

Nicked it from here. I think Satan got the short end of the stick. But that's a story for another day.
Leads me neatly to belief and knowledge. The difference between the two...proof? No proof like mathematical proof, am I right? Don't get too excited or worried, I'm not about to dive into some elaborate mathematics about life and death. But tell me this dear reader, do you believe you have two arms?

How many's that?

100% of you???

Now tell me do you believe you have two arms OR do you know you have two arms? Another bit of spiel I nicked from the mystic. You can say what you like about him but he sure can spin a yarn!

So my reason leads to believe that at the end of life there is nothing. The lights go out and they don't come back on again. It still scares me a little, the thought of eternity in the void. Well it wouldn't be in the void, just darkess, nothing... I am such a ray of sunshine in the depths of the British winter, no? But knowing it will all end could come as a comfort for some, the struggle of day to day life. But to others it's a tragedy that this fabulous ride has to ever come to an end. Makes me think that there is truth in the old adage that time flies when you are having fun. If you are miserable minutes feel like hours and days feel like entire eternities! Alternatively if you are joyful your life flies by in the blink of an eye! Slow and painful or fast and fabulous?

Knowing this won't last, provides some rather compelling motivation to make the most of it. At least that would be the most joyful way to live it out. I mean you're at this awesome party for x amount of time, should you live it up or should you mope in the corner cos it's cloudy/rainy/you don't have enough cash/a big enough car/ etc!? Life's too short to be annoyed with every fool, tool, dullard etc. Fume free as my esteemed associate Mark Taylor would say.

Anyone know what these lovely contraptions are?
They are of course fume cupboards, particularly useful when working with smelly/poisonous chemicals. I think they may serve as a welcome deterrent to fuming in general, stop it or you'll have to in the fume cupboard. Are we all savvy with the law of conservation of energy? Energy cannot be created or destroyed it can only be changed from one form to another. For example chemical energy can be converted into light, heat and sound. Burn a candle and the wax does exactly that. Heat doesn't really exist. Not sure if that's the best way of expressing that but heat is an expression of the kinetic energy something has.

It's from this law that the idea of reincarnation being practically true occurred to me. As is the way I am not the first person to arrive at this idea. One U.G. Kirshnamurti said as much on death. "When clinical death takes place the body breaks itself down into it's constituent elements and that provides the basis for the continuity of life." I'd have waffled forever trying to express that idea. UG was a genius! Everything that can be considered as a human being is of the body, even the mind is contained within. When death occurs the system loses all heat to the surroundings and is broken down at the cellular level. But if it is not sealed off then it is absorbed back into nature and will become "alive" once again.

Yep circle of life people. There's a lot to be learnt from a disney movie ;-). And how awesome is James Earl Jones' voice! So in that way the body is immortal. It just continues to shift from one form to another. But what of the personality? Whatever energy makes up the personality is recycled as well. So that really dies, by this line of reasoning. What is personality exactly? How do you define a personality? Characteristics and or qualities, put a bunch of those together and there's a personality. Is that really all we boil down to? Finding that a rather dull tbh.

Not checked up to see how accurate this is!
Anyone seen breaking bad? Or Full Metal Alchemist?In both there is a run down of the elements that make up the human body. The pic above shows that that's it. But as mentioned before that's not what makes up a human being. There's the bit between the ears, that dwells in the brain, that writes poetry, music and produces fabulous art. That bit is also physical format it in a particular way and you have me, fiddle with that a bit and there's you.

This is a line of reasoning that I find interesting. How many dimensions do we exist in? three right? Those are the physical dimensions. But you are probably aware of the fourth dimension, time. And we move through that as well. This video explains this much better. How many dimensions did you follow it up to? I got to seven before I felt rather confused and like my head was going to explode. Wonder what a twelfth level intellect can comprehend. So a fifth dimensional being would be able to perceive the entire lifespan of an object in an instant. Being able to move in higher dimensions opens up an interesting can of worms.

This can is labelled cause and effect. Cause precedes effect but not if you can move about in higher dimensions. Everything is apparent at once so the cause and the effect are happening at the same time. All rather confusing and makes me feel not so smart. I did briefly forget why I got into this at all! But I've remembered, yay! The cause would be be the body and the effect would be the personality.  There is a rather interesting article here:

http://apeaceful-warrior.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/a-book-titled-biocentrism-how-life-and.html

It goes into quantum physics and that's something I don't even pretend to understand. Inflationary theory, parallel worlds etc. sure I can appreciate the idea but the quantum world confuses me like nothing else.

I have not come to any conclusions as the only way to know is to go. Not quite ready to call it day so it may be a while before I step into the void. Much to do, see, hear, smell, feel and write before I kick the bucket. Reminds me of the black guy in Gladiator, "Not yet..."

Sunday, 28 April 2013

67 comments a PB :D

I realise this isn't my usual rambling but it was sooo massive I just had to store it away safely!
Sooo I felt like I'd been punched in the stomach at work today. So much so that I let Sarah punch me in the stomach!
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  • Gemma Saruni, Ashleigh Hasbian Wilkin, Swapnal Patel and 3 others like this.
  • Sarah Fisher hope it helped!
    23 April at 18:48 · Like
  • Ron G It did a bit tbh I was feeling rather numb n dizzy beforehand. Kinda snapped me back! Is your wrist ok? Mate of mine sprained his, back in the day, when he had a go.
    23 April at 18:49 · Like
  • Sarah Fisher haha youre not that solid! just clicked when u hit you
    23 April at 18:50 · Unlike · 1
  • Ron G Note to self: must do more ab work
    23 April at 19:23 · Like
  • Jagdish Rabadia alot more yoga needs attention my freind
    23 April at 19:28 · Like
  • Ron G Goes without saying Jag, a lot more inner work as well for sure!
    23 April at 19:39 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Hahahaha at "inner work" You so crazy
    23 April at 21:36 · Like
  • Jagdish Rabadia laughter may help too
    23 April at 21:37 · Like
  • Ron G Crazy like a fox!

    And laughter is my response to most of life's troubles! I've been bombarding myself with comedy since coming home Well I did a few rounds of shadow boxing before hand.
    23 April at 21:38 · Like · 1
  • Eleanor Booth That's just punching air.... lol lol lol
    23 April at 21:40 · Like
  • Jagdish Rabadia punching an imagined being.lol
    23 April at 21:41 · Like
  • Ron G Indeed it is! Got home a little later than usual, owing to...

    So didn't have time for my usual workout.

    And I was indeed punching the non-existential in the face! Quite the mad thing to do
    23 April at 21:42 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth ...why were you late home....? I'm sure whatever the reason it was a darned good one!

    PS that's not a fair fight. x
    23 April at 21:45 · Like
  • Ron G Yeah it was a pretty damn good reason

    And the fight is totally not fair as I can never hit that which does not exist!
    23 April at 21:46 · Like · 1
  • Eleanor Booth Well it sounds like it was worth missing your usual work out for wouldn't you agree?

    Hahahaha true, but you cannot be attacked back by that which does not exist. And whose to say that shadow's do not exist.... x
    23 April at 22:06 · Like
  • Ron G Worth it but if my triceps get all soft and useless I know where I'll be pointing the finger!

    Well a shadow is the lack of light. So if it is darkness then it is that which is not, it doesn't exist. Based on our current understanding of the universe.
    23 April at 22:09 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Of course it was worth it...or so it sounds. Hahahaha I doubt that would happen from one missed session.
    Oohh is someone quoting Einstein there! x
    23 April at 22:14 · Like
  • Ron G Worth it for sure.

    Well you'd be surprised, my body is terribly high maintenance!

    If I was it wasn't intentional Unintentional Einstein quote!
    23 April at 22:16 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Good lol
    Haha it looks it. If you come in tomorrow and look like this, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSzw5XyVQfY

    we shall know that you weren't just exaggerating.
    Maaaan that's even better - if ya didn't even know... Tsk. x



    Fat Bastard on the subway diet
    23 April at 22:20 · Like · Remove Preview
  • Ron G Nice use of Maaaan

    When you read the stuff I post do you read it in my voice, in your head?
    23 April at 22:28 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Yeah I do. Do you read it in my voice? x
    23 April at 22:29 · Like
  • Ron G Indeed I do, just wondered because I was also picturing your face saying Maaan as well
    23 April at 22:29 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Hahaha....creeeeepy!! What did it look like?

    I actually imagined that quietly smug face you have when you telling me that darkness does not exist
    23 April at 22:31 · Like
  • Ron G Quietly smug, you mean my default/screensaver face?
    23 April at 22:31 · Like · 1
  • Eleanor Booth hahahahaha!! No you have another one for when you are making a kick ass point. Its like you cant help but smile...
    23 April at 22:33 · Like
  • Ron G hmmm you'll have to take a pic and show me, I smile at every opportunity!
    23 April at 22:35 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Yeah you do but this one is more....smug!
    23 April at 22:36 · Like
  • Ron G If you say so Elle still gonna have to see it to believe it
    23 April at 22:39 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Alright Doubting Thomas!! Try and beat me in an argument and then quickly look in a mirror! Smug git
    23 April at 22:40 · Like
  • Ron G I think I may have just flashed the exact smile you were referring to well played!
    23 April at 22:41 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Thank you!! *applause, applause* *bows *. Plus I just beat you!!! Muhahahah!!!! x
    23 April at 22:41 · Like
  • Ron G So you know my smiles better than I do!

    I am either not very self aware, smilewise. Or you are quite the expert in the field of my smiles!
    23 April at 22:43 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Hmmm I'm not sure its either. Perhaps I'm just more observant and intuitive than you are clearly giving me credit for.
    23 April at 22:44 · Like
  • Ron G Possibly, or I smile smugly rather often.
    23 April at 22:44 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Hmm...it might be both this time...
    23 April at 22:45 · Like
  • Ron G I don't see why not
    23 April at 22:59 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth How long are these comments now. Its just us left...
    23 April at 23:00 · Like
  • Ron G I reckon this is a PB for one of my statuses!
    23 April at 23:01 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth PB?
    23 April at 23:02 · Like
  • Ron G Personal best
    23 April at 23:02 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth I think it might have to be. I was very glad to be a part of it and I hope you remember me in your memoirs!
    23 April at 23:04 · Like
  • Ron G I thought you were compiling them?
    23 April at 23:04 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth No. I am compiling the status' to go along with said memoir
    23 April at 23:06 · Like
  • Ron G Have I inadvertently committed to writing something long and involved? Surely you know enough about me to write my memoirs, right? I'm sure you'd do a much better job, I'd fill it with wall to wall clichés
    23 April at 23:08 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Hahahahahaha!! Omg you would. Okay, you write it and I'll edit the shit out of it. Like I do for Swapnal when he gives me things to rewrite. I don't even think he tries...
    23 April at 23:09 · Like
  • Ron G Well he obviously has utmost faith in your editing skills. Or he knows regardless of how hard he tries you'll alter/improve so much, that the extra effort just isn't worth it.
    23 April at 23:11 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Has someone been working on their complimenting skills?! I think its probably the latter with a little bit of what I said thrown in.
    23 April at 23:12 · Like
  • Ron G Sounds likely, also he knows you love tearing things apart and putting them back together with your own additions. So he gives you a lot to tear apart
    23 April at 23:15 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth I don't love that...that sound so violent. That's not me at all!!!
    23 April at 23:16 · Like
  • Ron G hmmm how about carefully de-constructing something before meticulously reconstructing it with your own additions. Better?
    23 April at 23:17 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Much better! ...although I kinda do ripping things apart
    23 April at 23:18 · Like
  • Ron G Figuratively ripping or literally ripping?
    23 April at 23:20 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Both I guess!! ...I think I am rather violent aren't i...?
    23 April at 23:21 · Like
  • Ron G Well it is in our nature to be quite physical so expressing that would also be natural, I guess.
    23 April at 23:22 · Like
  • Ron G I haven't seen any examples of you being violent
    23 April at 23:22 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Its not in my nature to be physical!! I avoid physical exertions unless deemed absolutely necessary.
    Hmmm maybe its bc you sit so faaaaar away.
    23 April at 23:23 · Like
  • Ron G Yeah I do sit proper far away don't I. Maybe the lack of physical exertion is manifesting as violence?
    23 April at 23:24 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Yes, yes you do!!

    Hahaha I think it might actually be. Either that or I can be wound up faaar too easily.
    23 April at 23:25 · Like
  • Ron G HIIT, it'll solve your issues with violence

    And it'll chill you out if you think you get wound up too easily.
    23 April at 23:26 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth You see but that's going back to physical exertion.

    Hahaha I am chilled out its just if you know what annoys me its too easy to do.
    23 April at 23:27 · Like
  • Ron G Mark obviously knows you too well!
    23 April at 23:28 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth Yes he does. He can do it with 3 little Nothern-ly pronounced words....
    23 April at 23:29 · Like
  • Ron G Would you say that's his catchphrase now?
    23 April at 23:29 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth That and "fuming". And who could forget "explain"!!! Oh I will miss that boy. Meet ups are defo in order!!!! xx
    23 April at 23:30 · Like
  • Ron G I may have to retire to bed soon or else I shan't be able to spring out of bed in a few hours time.
    23 April at 23:31 · Like
  • Eleanor Booth O god yeah course. Night night! xx
    23 April at 23:42 · Like
  • Ron G Goodnight!